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my boyfriend has a show this weekend everyone in the area should come out and support him...while ofcourse having a few drinks with me ^^ |
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| Winter Carnival |
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| 08:10pm 13/01/2008 |
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Was amazing. The vendors werent that great, the first two bands sucked, and the dj played nothing but ebm crap... but voltaire and the band's preformance made it all worth while. AND! Ian (my boyfriend) won the costume contest with what he dreamed up and I made. |
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| Great Halloween Gathering |
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| 01:25pm 29/10/2007 |
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I had an amazing gathering last friday. To everyone who made it yay, sorry if I flashed you LOL to all those who didnt boo your loss. I really dont remember some of it.. like I remember the boob signing but I dont remember flashing Jeremy... and... I dont remember a couple other things caught on camera ( damn it Ian) ... but over all I think everyone had a pretty good time...
So again... Yay |
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| 01:40pm 10/07/2007 |
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I really thought they'd have deleted this account by now. but I guess they havent. So maybe.. just maybe... I'll try and keep it updated more often. I really dont blog all that often so this account is pretty much useless, but I'll make a better effort to. |
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| 06:54am 27/10/2006 |
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Have you ever wanted something so badly it hurt to know you'll never have it? |
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| It lives! |
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| 12:38am 02/05/2006 |
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well now what do you know... I still exist! Just stopping in to say I haven't died... |
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| 04:33am 15/11/2005 |
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I haven't even bothered to open this site in a long while. But...today I have been thinking far too much for my own good. I really don't know what it is I want to get out of my head, but I need it out.... so bare with me if I ramble a bit. Have you ever... forced yourself to break down? To just cry for the sake of crying? I have.... My life is fine anymore, I work...and I live... and nothings wrong. I don't need anything... I don't need anyone...and I think that's part of whats bothering me now. I really am content, I don't need to find some companion... I don't need to find some meaning to life... or some answer to the mysteries in some weak mans faith...
I don't feel human anymore. Even things that upset me pass quickly, I can blow up at someone for being a complete moron and be over it within seconds...normally appologizing for being a bitch to them. It's gotten to a point where I want to break, I want to feel something other than this....calm. I've been playing games with myself, my mind has been creating these histories...these stories... to make myself play emotion. To act out these events in my head till I can cry.... And don't get me wrong. I don't want to be upset I guess... I just need something. I think this is normally where I'd travel... I'd run searching for something I've never seen or done, but with a lack of funds and time I can't run away again...atleast for a while.
Everyone around me is so happy. I'm happy I think... I am content if nothing more... I should sleep, maybe all of this is just the illogical rambles caused by a lack of sleep... maybe that's it. Or maybe I'm just too free a spirit to fall happily into repidition. I need change... I need to see and learn and experiance... and I have fallen into a zombie like state. Eh I'm going to bed.... |
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| Another Buddhist wisdom bit |
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| 04:28am 11/10/2005 |
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Everything is as it is. It has no name other than the name we give it. It is we who call it something; we give it a value. We say this thing is good or it's bad, but in itself, the thing is only as it is. It's not absolute; it's just as it is. People are just as they are.
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| Ugh why do people always continue arguements long after it's been said? |
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| 12:16pm 07/10/2005 |
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glittery6662002: www.geocities.com/crazy_glitterator
thepurplebunnyreturns: First... My name is Rebekah, not Rebecca. 2nd, I already mentioned that the walked to get him wasnt a big deal and it was understood, it was just uncomfortable. And yeah I am not in shape.. or wasnt before the trip. I lost a fuck load a weight during the trip though, and got a bit more stamina which I'm happy for. But yeah I didnt walk before I went out there.. I had my car..its all I needed, and insulting the fact I was in shit health isn't going to effect me being as I know it's true. So... good try. ^_^ As for the phone bit "But it was that or go home where i dont have anything entertaining and thought the gardens would be better than just sat there" It wasnt a matter of fucking wanting to change entertainment... it was a matter of I HAD to call him to get my fucking glasses back and
thepurplebunnyreturns: I knew he would be to work so I had to do it in the morning. It was fucking rude... period. There is no excuse for that behavior.. you should have atleast fucking told me where to find one. I attempted to be social, I'm not. I know that... I am shit with new people, and I tried talking to you as well. I was ignored, wether it was on accident or not. Yes I did ask to go to your mothers, you have as bad a memory as mine. And yes I did ask for chinese. And I know you heard me because you responded. I don't fucking lie... period.
thepurplebunnyreturns: As for the computer, I asked your mother every fucking time I used it. And when your sister was home I also was clear to say if anyone needed the computer tell me and I'll get off. The one time she did ask for it I gave it to her, and the time her friend needed it I gave it to her. In a place where I had no fucking enjoyment at all, I entertained myself. So.. yeah... say what you want ::shrug::
thepurplebunnyreturns: And your child is a brat. Anything he did his answer was I wanted to. He was never disciplined. You fucking let him take a ladder into the house and just drop it. I almost was hit by it. He continued doing what you told him not to and with no repreation. HE WAS FUCKING PLAYING WITH MATCHES AND YOU DIDN'T EVEN TELL HIM IT WASN'T A GOOD THING TO DO.
thepurplebunnyreturns: And who the fuck cares if you were sick? Grow up and take care of your fucking kid. Guess what... my mom had to raise me on her own... and I bet you she was sick numerous times as well, you're not the only person with a child who gets sick. That's not an excuse. He could have burned the house down. He could have died, and kill me and you in the process. And you can blame that on being sick? Oh give me a fucking break.
thepurplebunnyreturns: As for my journal upsetting you, I honestly dont care. It's my journal, I put in what I think and feel. It's upset many people...and they either get over it.. or they fuck off. Thats how it works. and how am I two faces or a hypocrit? Every fucking word I have said about you I said to you, and hypocrits?! yeah.. well again I don't honestly care what your opinion of me is anyhow.
thepurplebunnyreturns: I have no life.. hm. That's really.. really interesting. Just because you are too scared to go anywhere or do anything outside what you already know doesn't mean it is no life. I have seen more then you ever will, and I can never believe when people tell me I have no life. It's the lowest for of insulting... and shows a lack of anything better to say. And yeah the cheese thing is kinda weird isn't it? But I like cheese... oh well... just like you like getting so fucked up and having numerous sexual partners at a time. But who cares?
thepurplebunnyreturns: I do however feel bad that I upset your mother, somehow I do believe that it was relayed back to her in a differnt mannor but all the same she was an amazingly sweet woman and I didn't want to offend her, or cause her any grief. But so be it. I can't take back anything, and wouldn't even if I could. So.. it's just a reaction to an action I'll have to live with.
thepurplebunnyreturns: Now, obviously you're not going to stop with this. And you're asking to remain friends on her is retarded since you're going to continue ranting and bitching about something you should have done better to begin with. If you dont like how people view you, then act differntly to them to begin with. I'm going to leave you on my list for a week... to give you time to respond to me and get out what ever you have left. THEN...you will be removed so I dont have to continue this cycle of insults and retard revisiting of a bad event. It's over. It's done. It was an experiance. Now I want to sit back, analyze it....and learn from it. So.. by all means, respond and lets be done with this nonsense.
( sorry about the instant message form I didn't feel like retyping my response.) |
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| Ass end of my trip, and just to let you know I'm home ok. |
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| 04:32am 06/10/2005 |
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.. Eh ... So after Liverpool I took a train back to London, and could it be smooth and uneventful? Ofcourse not... there was a bomb scare. And for fourty minutes we had to wait while the British transportation police showed up and checked it only to be told it was "clear" and we could go. Yay. So I get back to London, get myself to Sephs, and he's a complete gentleman this time. And charming to no end... I'm really going to miss him.
The trip home was calm and uneventful really.. long day, but I'm ok. And I made it home fine. |
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| With good mirrors bad... |
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| 06:28am 29/08/2005 |
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mood:  sick music: Not the Doctor - Alanis Morrissette
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I had a great weekend, as stated in a previous entry. So.. I go outside yesterday and what do I find? Oil...all over the driveway... my car was pissed at me and broke down .... >.< oh well. So now I have to figure out how to get back and forth to work. I'm going to charge the Cutlass battery today and hopefully get it started for Tuesday and Wednesday.... and my aunt can take me to work at 4 today...though I was supposed to be to work at 2:30. Oh well they'll have to deal. I really need to go to the doctor though, my body isn't doing too well...and my stomach is always acidy. Hm... we'll deal with things after England...just..one..more...week. |
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| 05:18pm 28/08/2005 |
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Nocturna was pretty awesome. I got to meet Ali...who is a real sweetheart. And I hung out with Frank and Wendy, Nick and Brit, Joe and Brandie, and Jaz and Ed. It was cool... I got to see Mike too, I missed him. Talking with JV and Lilith was nice too.
I started off the night by Wendy coming over and putting my hair in curlers, but my hair didn't dry all the way before we had to leave so... it didn't curl as nicely as it could have. Then we picked up Frank at Bens... I got to say good bye to Ben because he's going to Austria or someplace like that. Then we drove out and got Ali... getting to her place wasn't so hard, but we got lost getting back to Belmont to go to the club. But it was ok cause we joked and laughed the entire time.
Then we saw Nick and Brit... which was fun because I hadn't seen them in a while. Specially Brit, since she didn't get to come to the bomb fire. But thats cool... then Jaz and Ed showed up, and that was fun too. Jaz tried to make a little drama in the middle of the evening, but she with held herself and everything passed easily and we avoided that situation. I told her we'd talk about it later when she was ready.
Joe and Brandie were all over each other all night because they just started dating. So that was kinda...weird, but good for them! ^_^ Only thing that even remotely got on my nerves was Frank and Brit know we go to Clarks after Nocturna...and they went without us and didn't go with us when we went. THEN ONTOP OF THAT later that night I found of Frank used the money he said he'd give me for gas to buy Brit dinner. Now I didn't even ask for money, but earlier that night he offered it to me. Then after he offered it he spends it? That's rude...as is not going with the entire group to Clarks. But oh well, I told him it was rude, he agreed, and it was over. No real drama there. Another thing was some random fat butch dyke pinched Wendys ass as she walked pass. Then continued to walk back and forth infront of us. But Wendy didn't want me to kick the girls ass so again it just passed over...
There was this really gorgous punk rock biker chick that I drooled over for a long long period of time. She looked like a guy for the most part, but mmmm she was perfect. She asked where I got my tie -.- and I was emabrassed to say hot topic...and it was the first time I was emabrassed to say so. Eh oh well. There was also this really fucking cute femmy black boy... he could have passed for a woman easily if he wanted to, but he wasn't really trying to. He was just gorgous too.
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| Just another quote.. |
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| 04:31pm 27/08/2005 |
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Only those who will risk going too far can possibly find out how far one can go.
-T.S. Eliot
Lets see... life goes well. I'm just off my 2,000 dollar goal for my trip, but I'll get it by the time I go. I'm still seeing Luke even though everyone, including myself, says I shouldn't. He's a really good guy when he's not drinking....so I've just been seeing him when he isn't drinking. God is he a good cook too... he made some scrambled eggs today that made me squeak. Fresh tomato... bannanna pepper... ranch dressing... garlic... cottage cheese. Things I'd never put in eggs, but it was sooo good. lol, maybe it's just because it was differnt? Who knows...but I have to go get ready for Nocturna now. |
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| 11:02pm 24/08/2005 |
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... My mind is boggled. I really don't know why I'm doing this to myself... I could go on some ramble about my past, but that's not who I am. I always try and fix the problems in my life not be restrained by them... but all the same... here I am...taking his crap with a sigh.
I took him to my place again the other night..he promised not to get drunk and not to invite anyone over.. and everything was going fine. We were watching movies and talking and just enjoy each others company. Then he started digging deeper, got me to open up about the sexual .........happenings......... of my childhood and life.
I don't know why I opened up to him. It was a stupid thing to do... after a while of him continuing to drink he started got pretty drunk..and asked me to go pick him up some cigs. So I did...and when I got back, he was on the phone. Inviting his friend to my house...like he promised he wouldn't. Then... after I finally got the fucking person out of my house... he was so fucked up he started insulting me again. He said he was too good for me... imagine that. A drunk... "thug" .... better than me? Yeah... I dont think so. So I let it go and after a bit of arguing I got him to go to sleep.
I wake up this morning to find the reason the call it piss drunk -.- He pissed the bed. And I don't really know why because I made him go to the restroom before bed ... I dunno. But now I need a new matress. Anyway I wash his clothes and let him borrow mine because I get called into work before his are dry. But right before I go to work the fucking dog bites him -.-
So I call today wanting to get my clothes back...and he answers, but he doesn't answer.. I just hear.. people... and him asking to hug some fucking chick..and her refusing. I just want my clothes back.. -.- And now as I'm typing this he fucking calls me from the bar asking if I want to see him or not...completely fucked up. But I think the only way I will get my clothes back is if I see him -.- |
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| 06:15am 23/08/2005 |
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Never say in weakness, "This task is too difficult,"
For perseverance will give the ability to accomplish it.
-Tirukkural 611
Mm I am so tired. ::laughs:: I've been up all night cleaning up the mess Luke and Mark made... but it's ok. I've only got a little more to do then my entire house will be clean again. |
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| 10:59pm 22/08/2005 |
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Ugh it was a hard day today. But! I'm happy! I passed my evaluation! Which means...after I do my computer courses.... I'll be par two! I'ma get a raise! BUT! ::goofy grin and playful sarcasm:: the best part is my apron gets another pretty gold star. I like stars..... Ugh it was a hard day today. But! I'm happy! I passed my evaluation! Which means...after I do my computer courses.... I'll be par two! I'ma get a raise! BUT! ::goofy grin and playful sarcasm:: the best part is my apron gets another pretty gold star. I like stars..... |
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| 08:55am 22/08/2005 |
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>.< After telling me he doesn't want to talk to me...and threatening me... he messages me to tell me he isnt mad at me and he was joking. What the fuck?! UGH... >. |
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| 07:15am 22/08/2005 |
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OK! well strike all that... Luke and I had another arguement, and this time he decided to threaten me. I asked if he always lied and he said yes... I'm not really 22... I don't know your cousin.... I didn't know where you lived till you showed me...and I'm a killer. Then he made it into a joke saying he likes to eat peoples socks -.- THEN! he said he was going to "sick mark" on me... yay... -.-
Why oh why do people have to be so...stupid? I really like hanging out with the guy...and now it looks like he's crazy ^-^ YAY! |
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